on this day, he copped a joint found it in his family reign. followed it despite his lungs and his own mind just slips away. 20 years of bullshit now. can't let it burn out this way. found a woman, second coming but he pisses her away. found his fortune in the leaf and broke his teeth in with the rake. all his rolling feels consoling but his mission he betrays. don't fight them too hard baby it can't help you anyway. hear my voice and say my name or they'll be hell to pay.

oh he's hanging. he's burning his joints like fever. he's dropping his bong and recoil. there's something about his face I don't really like much. he's whispering 'leash and collar.' telling me I'm a man. tell me I can quit. assume he never does. she's calling. and I am dead. phoenix. new instead. he's gone. he never loved you. he never even gave you flowers. for all your loving he gave you fuck all it calls for blood. assume he never does. he's climbing a pitchfork. you will open the door. drawing weed, open the door. kneel bitches, open the door. kingdom calls, open the door. you will open the door. all my seed, open the door. yeah bitches, open the door. glass can't see when you open the door. all fiends, open the door. balled up fists, open the door. ten bitches, open the door. all my fiends, open the door. pause, scene, open the door. third eye wide, open the door. break bitches, open the door. bash his brains, open the door. stem cell cradle, citizen abortion, open the door. cancer cell, open the door. my dead friend, close the door. come on. careen over the cable. Halo. and her skin. when she's there it feels alive and well. and the smoke burns your throat. so you spit it out. lie. and your king he's a liar he's telling people the truth. and your heroes, they're all liars with their mansions and their wealth. all the spaces with nothing left. all the people living deaf. all the raspy genocide. all the liquid pesticide. all the dry-mouth remedy. all the pictures that you'll never see. all your girlfriends you left at home. all the greatest things you'll never own. all the washcloths in the wash. all the tap water storm drain dust. all the leafy established minds. like the broken killing time. like a kid I've been born again. like a kid I've been saved from all of my sins. I am invincible.

she rises. she's coming back for me. she's dead. she's turned her back on me. she's there. she's there so much for me. undead. i've turned my back on everything. she's real enough to me. hi, it's me. i wanted to tell you i loved you. i wanted to die for you. i wanted to tell you everything.

i came today. i thought it might be me who fucked it all along. i lie awake. i'm slanted in spines. your mouth only traces the rough dead skin. you played the game. you lived the lie. i've been misplacing all of my things. the things they said to me they're lies. i know you'll be perfect forever long. my love, again, to trace old wings... but please help me. i can't be saved.

california. something wicked. stoner torment. herb is singing. spaced out fishing. laughing, pissing. stay your rifles. watch him light up. watch his face turn to new. california. something twisted. coughing asthma. skin chunks, blood clots. boy can't help it. relief is the respite. take a rest kid. drink your spirits. cry in bed and then fall through. wake up. california. gas is missing. car is falling. lever stalling. lost in lynch mob. finds a doorknob. leaves his car there. pulls in fresh air. Rocky Mount, meadow, brand new... meadow, meadow, meadow I know. and it lingers. cash can't keep her. your house is burning. skin's green surely. his eyes are pretty. a fucking pity. his skin will shrivel. his heart is gristle. his eyes are popping. no Bible for this. no one to help, so sit and dream.

thinking, california. dreaming, like a porno. dead things, they're like leeches. i'm not the same kid in binds. fucking california. his own place. his own palace. he's dead. he is dead. no...

she's the way. eyes like flame. skin. lips can move. sing. watch the moon. she's so faultless. wanna taste her soft skin. she's mother now and make no mistake. leak. skin. melt my hands. hair. tie my hands. singing. tear the sky. love, we'll never die.

i'm different. my singing is sharp and it stings me. i'm sickly. my marches they slip like the feeling. you go. you come and you go into talons. talent. something i'm missing i miss you. i'm backwards. my childish sensations are ripe there. i'm forwards. i cry and i smoke like a bitch. i go. i go in the rain and i shiver. he's dead. holding his body, and sulking. my golden years... golden like piss. my liver. it sings and it burns to the touch. it lingers. a slipping sensation of guilt. you go. you cry in the closet, i'm swinging. you shout. i slip out the window they eat me. the party.

drug addict, ecstatic. for star death and thick cosmic magic. and tragic comes last, it hits you right then... but goes into the trash, and you burn for weeks, with hand in pants, and smoke like the fam did. his final joint wilted. forgotten in pavement. oh christ. he barely can stand and carelessly drags sand. a paltry pity party for the polishing wrist. a potty-mouthed able-brained loser exists. there's nothing now maybe forever. no hope, success.

oh it's bad all the time. i love you. oh she weeps and she says "you're a boy" with the wind in her hair she killed you. oh it's sad all the time. i love you. oh he's sad all the time. he loves you. and he sings like a bitch 'cause he's bored. and his girl, she is crying in her bra. oh he's bad all the time. he loves her. oh he's sad all the time. he loves her. like a bird he has broken wings. but he never had the chance to fly. single-use like a tube in his throat. probably dead by the time that they knew. yes i'm sad all the time. i love you. yeah it's bad all the time. i love you. cradled nails in his hands 'cause he's shit. all his life he's been reaching for legit. for her love he would kill so he did. all his dreams spilling out he is dead. he was sad all the time. now he's dead. he's been dead all the time. he loved you.

go love. my angel. they call me. and they mean it. gods fall and it's the end. cradle my mistakes. my mothers all angry. cut off my lips and ring all of it. single, my love is. distance is all i need. if she collapses my love. i'd cry out my every. gods singing with 808s. sing god. send them away. my empty womb. and you are my baby. and if i cut off my legs. give me the scissors and fuck off. hand me the whispers. stay with me. can't even break away. i gave up on anything. came crawling back, you know. i'm at the end. you are the best thing that happened to me.